Is the world around me changing or am I the only one who changes?
I think I prefer the latter than the former.
Fuck, what's happening to me again?
Puberty? Well it has started long ago, I mean physically
But there's another part of me, sigh
Damn! I feel like I've been surrounded by so many idiots nowadays
as if the whole universe owes me
and all the fucking people around me revolving in my life are so despicable and idiotic
Damn.
My temper has been bad and now it becomes worse than the worst
Every time I feel like losing my temper and find no way to lose it in a more
hmm.. satisfactory way.
and my choice of word that I used to spout out when I'm being irritated has changed too
and it changes from a level of mild to very blatant and obnoxious
such as You stupid > idiot as you are > chibai > asshole > Dim-wit > FUCKER!
LOL, in conclusion, no sign of positive changes that are playing in me

In the other hand, I had finished 40% of Grace's sensual novel - The other side of the midnight
Finally, I get a hunch of what the stupid title has got to do with the story line
I suppose it means doing something stealthily behind someone, conspire something else
and then when the person you hate is off guard,
you strike him/her hard, avenge for yourself, destroy the person
watch him/her suffer while you yourself folding arms revelling in the satisfaction.
The funny part of this novel is that
It's hard not to be horny halfway reading it haha ...
Never mind, I'm loving the extreme ~

So now the changes that strike me out of a sudden have had a substantial impact on my thinking
I wonder did I ever have a crush in the "girls" at my school
well, my friend can tell who they are easily
I wonder is it a craze, a fashion or what
but one thing for sure that would never change
I'm not gay ^_^
Sometimes I wonder what's true love also @. @
and my preoccupation on this matters only complicate my life
So I decided to put it aside first
and amusingly, you know what am I going to say
Concentrate in my .... haha, it's so boring every time that I've to say this
But I make a promise to myself
Once I've had enough assets
I'll taste what I like