eh, the time is ticking
must work hard now
gotta stick to my old routine during SPM time
gotta memorize 3 pages of PA per day =.=

today I'm not in a good mood
SERIOUSLY
first of all, of course
it's because my speaking test today
I feel that I screwed up the Task A - Individual Presentation
I'd little points to say, which only amounted to 1 mins and 30 secs like that
and then my language was. hm shall I say, terrible?
I wasn't not the usual self of me that time
Terrible in a sense that I didn't think properly before saying
it means that my sentence structure had got some mistake
Haizzzz
Task B was quite ok
I was able to come up with idiom and good phrase
which had the examiners stunned
well, I noticed their reaction
maybe I wasn't so outstanding in Task A
that's what I could tell from the examiners' awe-in-surprise face
well, this is really making me moody all the day
plus having to stay back help teacher wash car as part of our stupid coco
fueled my moody disposition which then amounted to my anger
so I was quite pissed off when washing the damned car
I felt like we were being exploited
and we Science class students didn't get the chance to use to hose
and we were like some sort of peasants taking water from other place
laboriously taking it to the car to pour some water on it
what the f**k
stupid!
then I couldn't wait to go home
luckily Yuen Kun gave me a ride

but then after such moody half-day
I took a nap
then there I saw my mum
and know what?
She bought me a cloth
this indeed soothed my mood a bit
but still I'm also worry about my speaking performance
I'm still preoccupied with it now D:
I can't get it off my mind, really
Now I can only stay positive as possible as I can
as there are still 3 tests to contend with
particularly listening, reading and writting
fuck, I don't wanna retake the exam again
I feel like this form 6 life doesn't go the way I expect
having to retake some subjects for Sem 1 is already burdensome
now is the English test, haizzz What the Shit!
Why is it like that? D:
never mind, I believe when there's a will, there's a way
Now I must look forward
hope my other 3 tests could help me to compensate the marks lost in speaking
haizzz it seems like
The more you expect, the more you'd likely be disappointed.

Hm... have been too busy celebrating Chinese New Year xD
No matter how much I glamorous the Whites or western
I'm still feeling very proud as being a Chinese person haha
and I'm grateful that I get to learn Chinese
which gives me an edge in the later work life

I have no idea where to start from since it has been a long time since I last wrote
so let's start off with this Saturday
nothing special, went to Sedenak for reunion
Last but not least, we played firecrackers and of course
I always stick to my job as a person who babysits my younger
niece and nephew, whom I treat them as little brother and sister xD
and taking ang pao and gambling as well

Sunday I totally forgot what I did
but not for watching The Saw at home =.=
I'm kind of a person who likes blOOdy movies~~~

Monday went to Port Dickson
nothing much interesting and fun, though
the best part of it is I got to win a lot of money
with a total RM181, which I counted
from all my relatives
why? because they were not willing to be the banker
because all the way I was winning money
but since they granted me the chance,
Forcefully and reluctantly, I be the banker
and won all their money haha
but later was forced to treat them dessert D:

Wednesday went back to JB again
My spirit wasn't good as I had a terrible insomnia on Tuesday night
because I'd very serious stomachache
which I have no idea how I got it
guess it was from eating too much chillies

Despite the fact that all the way from Saturday until Wednesday
that I was full with activities
I still didn't get to rot at home on Thursday haha
went out with Pei Teng they all
visited Jason's house as well
and the best part of it that I learned how to play Mahjong haha!
See what fun had made :

The actual mastermind who actually hold a "casino" in his house LOL

But thanks to him for the free mahjong lessons haha

and then there were all of us who were playing mahjong like some sort of addicts who usually can only be seen in Hong Kong movie LoL

Before I forgot, we went to Secret Recipe for lunch

because The Toast was closed

and the food there are like freaking expensive

not worthy at all

but Secret Recipe will be my yamcha spot in my later life hahaha

one of my resolution ? =.= xD

and then I finally got the chance to rot on Friday!

of course watching The Saw is a must

and wen to Jusco with my mum, niece and nephew again

and damn I forgot to buy glue again =.= 

Can't wait to retrieve my RM250 vouchers! 

Saturday, which is yesterday

is the most memorable day that we ever had in our school life haha

because 6ASC finally show some little "Unity" 

like United States America, which is further divided into

North America and South America 

at which California, Brazil etc etc are her counterparts

( Although they are not really close to each other, but at least they unite LOL )

The analogue I use is 

we finally showed some little unity =.= 

we went to Chee Seng's house for mahjong first 

the girls play black jack or whatever

after that we went to Yuen Kun's house awhile

and gambled for about 45 minutes 

then we went to Wa Fu, a newly found good restaurant in Austin for lunch

the food there are relatively affordable, and can full our stomach 

Next time noobie Droisyer come back must go there eat la! -.- 

and then the others went for tuition

and we went to start our ULTMATE BORING ROTTING SESSION 

with the others who are not attending tuition classes in Mc Donald =.=

FOR APPROXIMATELY 2 HOURSSSSSS

It was really boring though, our unity seemed to break again

Li Ting with the girls talked their own stuffs

Pei Teng and the boys and me talk our own stuffs

and 1 more isolated fellow ( You know who I meant ) 

was starting his daily nerdy schedule of reading some anime comics

so it was entirely three different worlds, not even a gap that can be bridged LOL~

but lastly, the good me

took up the initiative and the role to play Truth or Dare with them 

and then we play lor ..... 

The greatest moment is that we don't feel like asking Miss Kuah a lot of questions

so we actually asked him to do a lot of funny things 

For example : 

there are still some which I was too lazy to snap photos of Miss Kuah

what if my iPhone's screen cracked, or the system hangs? 

I'm not willing to take the risk Okay!  haha

so 2 tedious but yet, fruitful? yeps

Fruitful approach to know our classmates better passed

and we went to fetched those tuition fellows

and then we went to Li Ting house

haha, her house has got a lot of biscuits 

and then we played Truth Or Dare again, using Black Jack =.=

those who "explode" with the greatest number kena lo. 

and then our last station before Steamboat was Beatrice aka Big MaMa's house

her house was so romantic~~, not until she switched on the white lights 

then we play the usual games again, Black Jack, Truth Or Dare, *Yawnss*

Pei Teng was unable to join us

then here came our dear Ying Sin, fetched by Big MaMa

So, at around 8.30 if I wasn't wrong

we were negotiating where to eat steamboat

and it came as a shock that

those girlssss actually plucked up the courage to drive to Molek LOL!

Once again, we squeezed in the little table to have our steamboat

hm, unity unity, at least we attained the greatest and the most virtuous element

UNITY !

So we ordered our food, which amounted to RM210

with RM18 per person, quite cheap eh? 

Hm, our smexy Big MaMa's photos ! Hahaha

it is a waste that she isn't a good gambler haha

which could be used to boost her charisma more! xD

Thank you Big MaMa for all the helpings xD

And then the girls drove us home 

so our days had ended

Haiss ( < it's not a sigh ) 

Chinese New Year has passed

what had I done so far?
well, with no regrets

I've down my part well, just not 100 % good 

I do my homework ( but not for CNY ) 

I studies what teacher taught

though I never listen to their lessons

but at least I read until where they stopped 

and then I pay attention in PA class although I hate this subject very much

then there goes the MUET 

I don't hate the teacher, I simply hate the lessons 

seriously I hate almost every lessons

but what sustains me is my interest

be it in physics or maths etc etc

once again, I did a lot of self reflection in this CNY

when I listen to my friend chee sing 

saying how he shopped all the malls in KL

I promise myself I'll have that lifestyle in the future

when my mum made dinner for me

I promise I'll take good care of her when she's old 

and I will learn to slow down my pace for everything

for not so pek chek at everything, even my mum haha 

and then relationship stuffs

I've learn to let go again

I'm not going to involve myself in this game before finishing my studies

probably before degrees .

coz I've no money for girls

then there're things which I learned from Ding Hui also

not to keep pestering girls as this irritates them a lot

then there is Mr Cheong Zhenan whom I learned a lot from too 

never fuss with everything although we're not the one who got the benefit 

well, he fetches me home every time after chemistry tuition on Sunday 

then there is Miss Kuah xD

I'll try to reduce my words acidity haha

and this is indeed the biggest moral challenge of mine 

but I'll try my best

now I almost stopped bullshitting about his gigolo business xD 

and then there're a lot of people's homes whom I visited

one need not be freaking rich to be happy 

if you're contented with what you have, then you will feel happy

although this one seems contradicts with my very first resolution 

of wanting to have some lavish lifestyle with extravagant spending

but at least, this did motivate me to study harder, and be a better person

with desirable characteristics

but as I said

I will be happy too if I can't this kind of extravagant richy lifestyles :)

and lastly, vengeance 

never ever hold a grudge and resent someone for what he or she

had done on you

like "her" 

If I do some sort of foolish things like seeking revenge or what

it only drags me down to her level 

which Droisyer have "brainwashed" me earlier LOL 

Okay, that's all ^^

Still unable to hide my eagerness to open my ang pao 

to discover how much money I actually got 

but have to wait until 初15 D:

and my family wouldn't be around for 7 days after tomorrow

they are going to Korea, my mum followed too 

and I sincerely wish them a safe trip

last but not least, hope my mum bought me some nice stuffs

not other noob out-fashioned stuffs during her others trips 

OPPPS, be contented :):):) 

Byes, gotta go now 

watch movie or continue with my unfinished homework ? -.- 

Recently, I've changed a lot

I can leave my homework undone and bring them to school

and today "downstairs" teacher gave a piece of her mind to me

saying that I double-standard-ed her or whatever

just because I didn't do her homework as she has told us to do on Friday

and that was when I knew that I've changed. 

And I've been picking up many bad habits recently

I can leave my homework undone

and go online or watching movies

like yesterday

shall I say

I'm just not myself for the time-being?

because something terrible is really happening in me 

well, I guess it's because of the stress 

that has been building up in front since long time ago

I remembered last time I always complain that

I didn't have enough time of FB-ing 

LISTEN, FB-ING...

during my most busy and hated week(s) 

which were the weeks when I had public speaking competition

Writing scripts, making lots of amendments to my scrips to make them sound nice

and then practicing in front of a mirror while holding my phone which acts as a stopwatch

I'm a total perfect of myself

still preserving what I always been 

and I also remembered during standard 1 to 6

I'd always forced myself to finish at least third quarter

of my mountainous homework before going to bed 

how time changes people... this is what I feel

I've been deteriorating nowadays\

and I'm gonna stop this by now

REFORM, is what I should do now 

and I'm gonna do it today

I'm gonna adjust the clock time in my phone

so I won't complain having not enough time for preparation before school

I'm gonna sleep at the latest 10.30 p.m.

so that I won't complain depriving or sleep because I wake up at this

erm... fucking 5 a.m.

I'm gonna finish my homework as soon as I get back home

and finish them as much as possible 

so that I'm not gonna repeat the mistakes I've done today

and I'm gonna waste my time talking nonsense in class anymore

but not all the time of course 

I've to change back myself to SPM-mood again!

like what I did for the past major exam

I know God likes to compare

and I'm afraid that He will punish me

because I didn't put much effort like I did in my SPM

I'm gonna deviate from my very first goal again